Monday, May 9, 2011

Nothing good comes from jealousy

My friend asked me point blank what I plan to do with the rest of my life.  I thought about that and replied I would like to be an inspiration.  But I know now that I will never be as inspiring as another cancer survivor because her blog reaches a ton more people than mine does. 
                                             So I thank YOU for reading this.

     My old friend Cowboy gave me a card that said forgiveness on it.  From the day he gave it to me I have kept it.  I had with me at his funeral and I look at it whenever I get angry at someone or something.  He gave it to me on my worst day that I can remember.  I was so pissed off at the world that day that my speech therapist had me punch a bag and we did not even try to do any therapy that day.  At the end of my session somehow Cowboy and I met up and he walked with me out to the car before I got in the car he hugged me and said "It will get better, stay strong."  Now at the time the words did not resonate with me I was like, "yeah whatever."  However I pass that advice along to anyone that will listen.  I still have the card and Cowboy is MY inspiration.

  Rest in peace Cowboy.  You will NOT be forgotten.  I meant what I said to you in the hospital you gave me the strength I needed and you continue to be a guardian angel to me.  I thank God that I was lucky enough to have met someone like you.  God sure knows what he is doing, even if it doesn't feel like it.


  

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