So my computer caught a nasty virus that caused my system to screw up and Blogger not to work for a few weeks. Luckily my wonderful engineer husband saved my stuff and wiped my hard drive and now the problem is fixed!!! I realize that I might have lost a few readers during my forced hiatus... eh well. I am not worried. I do this for my own catharsis.
So since I have blogged last alot has transpired. I quit Equest. Pam told me I was slipping into a dangerous depression and I needed to get out of the house. So I started taking riding lessons at WSSP, and working from 8-11 Monday and Friday. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday I just go to take the horses out. Sergio takes 5 at a time. I take 1 at a time or 2. Depends on how I feel. When I go there I want to feel useful so when he comes walking out of the barn with 5 horses it makes me feel useless even though I know I am not. That is just how Sergio rolls he has mastered the job of barn management.
Anyway I am getting my strength back. Friday I went with Freya to dump the manure and I picked up the huge heavy tarp and tossed it in the back of the truck all by myself. Now you may be saying to yourself WTF are you proud of yourself for? I am proud because during the treatment I got so weak that I could not lift over 10 lbs. Also the muscles in my legs atrophied from non use. Amanda, my trainer said her goal for me is to be able to post for 30 full minutes. She saw that my right side is significantly weaker than my left side and said we are going to concentrate on that. I surprised myself with my ability to balance on a moving horse. I was able to do a 2 point on a trotting horse after only 5 tries. Granted it was only for about 5 seconds but I did it. She let me hold the back of the saddle to gain my balance or if I thought I was going to fall off. Sam (the horse) sensed that I was not so skilled and was careful not to toss me off into the dirt. Amanda says I am a nervous rider and I waste alot of energy by gripping with my legs when I should just be one with the horse. As a matter of fact the first time I trotted with Sam I tensed up so much that he automatically went into a walk. Amanda said that was because I got so tense. Also she saw I was gritting my teeth and told me not to do it, after 3 times telling me gently not to grit my teeth she said, "Andrea I DON"T want to see you grit your teeth ANYMORE." I mad a conscious effort to keep myself from doing it from then on.
I am in private lessons due to the fact that I am medically not allowed to jump at all. I think that is better for me right now. Basically this is additional physical therapy for me. Riding strengthens and tones every muscle in your body, it is kind of like swimming only not wet.
I feel the need to give back because of all the people that helped me through the extremely difficult treatment. The past 2 years have been a fight for my life and no one would allow me to give up. Thank you guys more than words can say.
Contingent on the fact that my computer stays healthy I will blog later.
So since I have blogged last alot has transpired. I quit Equest. Pam told me I was slipping into a dangerous depression and I needed to get out of the house. So I started taking riding lessons at WSSP, and working from 8-11 Monday and Friday. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday I just go to take the horses out. Sergio takes 5 at a time. I take 1 at a time or 2. Depends on how I feel. When I go there I want to feel useful so when he comes walking out of the barn with 5 horses it makes me feel useless even though I know I am not. That is just how Sergio rolls he has mastered the job of barn management.
Anyway I am getting my strength back. Friday I went with Freya to dump the manure and I picked up the huge heavy tarp and tossed it in the back of the truck all by myself. Now you may be saying to yourself WTF are you proud of yourself for? I am proud because during the treatment I got so weak that I could not lift over 10 lbs. Also the muscles in my legs atrophied from non use. Amanda, my trainer said her goal for me is to be able to post for 30 full minutes. She saw that my right side is significantly weaker than my left side and said we are going to concentrate on that. I surprised myself with my ability to balance on a moving horse. I was able to do a 2 point on a trotting horse after only 5 tries. Granted it was only for about 5 seconds but I did it. She let me hold the back of the saddle to gain my balance or if I thought I was going to fall off. Sam (the horse) sensed that I was not so skilled and was careful not to toss me off into the dirt. Amanda says I am a nervous rider and I waste alot of energy by gripping with my legs when I should just be one with the horse. As a matter of fact the first time I trotted with Sam I tensed up so much that he automatically went into a walk. Amanda said that was because I got so tense. Also she saw I was gritting my teeth and told me not to do it, after 3 times telling me gently not to grit my teeth she said, "Andrea I DON"T want to see you grit your teeth ANYMORE." I mad a conscious effort to keep myself from doing it from then on.
I am in private lessons due to the fact that I am medically not allowed to jump at all. I think that is better for me right now. Basically this is additional physical therapy for me. Riding strengthens and tones every muscle in your body, it is kind of like swimming only not wet.
I feel the need to give back because of all the people that helped me through the extremely difficult treatment. The past 2 years have been a fight for my life and no one would allow me to give up. Thank you guys more than words can say.
Contingent on the fact that my computer stays healthy I will blog later.
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