Depression is a funny de pression when you break it down to the final little bits it really eats you up. I am depressed I have cancer it is normal to be depressed and scared but is it normal to be THIS depressed and scared?
It finaly started sinking in about 10 minutes ago I know I know can a girl get a break? It will sink in over the next few days and months and years. I know I know we have already lost several of our so called "friends" Jeff lisa Andrew Blake Yes I am calling you out Billy annie edo all of my poker buddies
By the way all of you are clamoring to know what you can do? Come get me out of this house away from the in laws they need a break from me just as much as i need a break from them.
Take me to a movie and excuse the appetite, and new do and the way i talk, it is slow at best noncomunicating at worst I find when i see people I haven't seen in long time my speech takes a while to come back. but I am pushing harder than ever.
They say Have a spot on my mri that wasn't there presurgery but was there post op. the docs don't have any idea what it is. it may be anyone of three things
1 inflammation 2 may have a stroke 3 this is unlikely, tumor
I'm voting for the spot being the doctor's wrist watch... He did create a pretty good sized hiding place in there. And that means you may have lost a snarla, but you gained jewelry!
ReplyDeleteI'm planning on coming by some time this weekend... I'll call Mike to arrange a good time Saturday. Let's go for cookies!
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Mike's friend Darrell McC. from Connecticut here. Lost my sister-in-law to cancer last year, so I've seen a lot of this kind of thing before.
ReplyDeleteYes, it's perfectly normal to be this depressed. Yeah, THAT depressed. It's okay. You're still a person. People get this way. Fine. No problem.
As for the in-laws, if they're driving you nuts, tell them to fuck off. What are they going to do? Hit you?
Your blogging is wonderful and though I've never met you in person, I think Mike is a lucky guy to have somehow convinced you to marry him. Your taste in men, however, is a little questionable.
You've already got your 'A' game going on, even if it doesn't feel like it. Believe me.
Keep fighting!