So when I was diagnosed I was iffy about God. I didn't go to church, basically I held a grudge against him for my mother dying when I was still developing mentally. I was 5 or 6. I blamed him for all the bad things that had happened in my life and I questioned his very existence. I believed the world wasn't controlled b y some invisible graceful force. I thought it was just a higher power fucking with us. I resented my life and took it for granted.
Then I met Michael, he brought purpose into my life. After we got married and I was diagnosed with brain cancer I was convinced that I was too big of a burden for him to carry. I mean think about it Newlyweds and the wife gets a deadly form of cancer not just any cancer Brain Cancer. And the choice set before us was a very difficult one. The surgery could leave me paralyzed or unable to communicate. I was very sorry that I had gotten this disease. I apologized profusely to him to which he ALWAYS replied, "I take my vows seriously".
Any other guy I know would have cut and run. Michael stayed and we are stronger for it.
The road to recovery was a long and DIFFICULT journey. One that I couldn't have survived with God and all the people praying for me. This cancer has actually changed my life in a big way. I now go to church and believe in the power of prayer. I believe that when more than one person asks for the same thing there is more of a likely hood that it will be done.
Now I married into a Catholic/Jewish family and their views are widespread. I don't judge because all prayers go to the same place. I try not to dwell on the differences in peoples beliefs. I come from an extremely Christian family. So as not to offend anyone I will cease the discussion of religion right there.
The point is that with the help and never ending support of countless people I am well again.
Then I met Michael, he brought purpose into my life. After we got married and I was diagnosed with brain cancer I was convinced that I was too big of a burden for him to carry. I mean think about it Newlyweds and the wife gets a deadly form of cancer not just any cancer Brain Cancer. And the choice set before us was a very difficult one. The surgery could leave me paralyzed or unable to communicate. I was very sorry that I had gotten this disease. I apologized profusely to him to which he ALWAYS replied, "I take my vows seriously".
Any other guy I know would have cut and run. Michael stayed and we are stronger for it.
The road to recovery was a long and DIFFICULT journey. One that I couldn't have survived with God and all the people praying for me. This cancer has actually changed my life in a big way. I now go to church and believe in the power of prayer. I believe that when more than one person asks for the same thing there is more of a likely hood that it will be done.
Now I married into a Catholic/Jewish family and their views are widespread. I don't judge because all prayers go to the same place. I try not to dwell on the differences in peoples beliefs. I come from an extremely Christian family. So as not to offend anyone I will cease the discussion of religion right there.
The point is that with the help and never ending support of countless people I am well again.
Regardless of anything, whether negative or postive, a loss or gain, that occurs in our lives, God has never and will never forsake us. He is always there, whether we choose to see him, love him, or pray to him. He is our creator, our father, we are his children, and his love for us is eternal, unconditional. Through Jesus Christ, his son, we shall receive eternal salvation, forgiveness....nothing we do cannot be forgiven, for accepting Jesus Christ into our hearts, we are washed, cleansed in the blood of the lamb. I am so glad that you have overcome your struggle with cancer, and that you have found your faith. I am also glad you have a husband who loves you so! <3 Shelly
ReplyDeleteMike, I knew you had it in you. Andrea, hang on to your man. You've got a good catch there.
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