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this sux yeah i;m not denying it...
My shrink said to me STOP BEING A VICTIM because I was OBSESSED with death.  Any way I was fuming at her but she was right. Couple days later while pulling weeds (Oliver that is how I am getting better physically.
She also said not eating is pseudosuicide. I AM N O T MY MOTHER.   This Tumor will rip me physically limb from limb but I would not do anything to consciosly hurt myself.
Mike introduced me to protein bars. wherever you see me you can guaranteed protein bar is not far be hind.
I find my days slipping by happily thanks to the park . I am Using the meditation techniqe the Monk across the street taught me.
Painting when it is rainy at park if it is a pretty day.  physically i find I find I am slowly becoming more coordinated.   I can dance like move my feet real fast and not fall down.left over right vice versa.
btw My hair is growing back it is not growing wher the plate is but everywhere else.