from birth we are all immediately start dying. so when you get a debilitating such as I have you contemplate alot of things.
1 I have NO regrets
2 going int this with a positive attitude
3 drs assure me......
what do they assure me of? in addition to Keppra they put me on Lamictal. the pain isn't too terribly bad...of course I have just taken a half a valium so I block out the parts that are to painfull. some require one coat of forget other things (Seizure) I don't think I will ever totally forget but it is taking more coats than moms death. Of course I was a 5-6 yr old then and now I am 28 suffering from cancer..not just any cancer I have the uber deadly left frontal lobe tumor. at least when ches found out it was like thank god it is not on his left side.
My question is when do you stop fighting and just give in. thoughts of death especially with the leigh tragedy. I can definately PROMISE THAT I WILL NOT TAKE MY LIFE that is the ultimate selfish gesture. I see it as you giving the finger to evryone that cares for you. And NO I don't want to do that.
I am thankful for those of you that take time to read my ramblings.
Hi Andrea,
ReplyDeleteI'm still praying for you while sending lots of good thoughts your way!