It is nights like last night that make me grateful I have Mike.
It was 330 and I woke up with what felt like a sinus headache. Well it got worse and worse until the pain was at a 7 and it was coming in waves and showing no sign of stopping. Mike fed me a zofran bc the pain was making me nauseus and 1000 mg tylenol and one single percocet. I felt like SHIT!!!! And AImee is here. I considered going to the hospital but it would just be a bunch of waiting and getting poked and then them giving me morphine and sending me on my way. So we looked at the book that stephanie gave us and decided to wait it out. Mike had to put me in the sleep trap and let me be alone bc I was thrashing around the bed like a wet dog.
I mean it was all over the right side then it settled behing my eye and it came in crashing waves. Once one was done I would brace myself for another and surely as the sun will rise it came This went on for about and hour before I fell into an exhausted sleep. I will tell a doctor maybe they can tell me what it was.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
so excited!!!!
This wknd the agenda is: dancing and painting with Aimee Noth. Mike said we could paint the creative room!!! SO we are going to home depot to get supplies, then we are going to have a painting party. I haven't had one ever before; so this should be interesting.
Prayers for Amber Joy Schemerhorn (AA left lobe came back she has a 10 yr old son) 5 yrs clean. Her blog is connected for all to read.
Prayers for Amber Joy Schemerhorn (AA left lobe came back she has a 10 yr old son) 5 yrs clean. Her blog is connected for all to read.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
That ol' cliche'
You know how people say "I need a vacation from my vacation...."
I am back in Dallas fresh of the boat from Ga. While I was there I saw a whole mess of family, too many to name. But I ate well courtesy of my aunt Beths wonderful cooking. My favorite part was the boat ride...even though it WORE me out.
It was a delight to meet Stephanie (My cousin with BT on the right FLobes') wife. I don't know if I explained that properly.
And of course saw Dad&Fran, Grandaddy, Aunt Mardi, Aunt Cheryl, Uncle Keith, Aunt Bobanne, Uncle Charlie and cousin Garner and his wife....
Saw a bunch of pictures. Figured out I like to garden and paint. Gardening is more when I am frustrated task though. Whereas painting is peaceful.
I came home One day early b/c I was out of my Keppra (seizure control meds). I was worried about the cabin pressure in the plane triggering a seizure, Thank GOD that did not happen. I would not only be in pain, but I'd be trapped in this house for ANOTHER 6 Months. Treatment I can take, being caged is not. I want to be a functional part of this relationship. April 21....just a few more weeks.
Aimee Noth is coming into town as my last vacation guest before I start my oral chemo. Lets see I want to go dancing on Friday. Then paint the rest of the wknd, relax, enjoy each others company.
Alexander the Great (Beths' 88 lb 10 month old "puppy") was hurt on his back leg from running right in front of the golf cart (He won't do that again) then got his paw stuck in the locked screen door and scared all of us. It must have been a sight to see 3 people sprinting for a dog that was crying. It was my and Alexs' fault I locked the door and he was chasing a cat, so technically he learned an albeit painful lesson but one he won't forget.
Oh yeah I figured out here I developed a taste for meat, egg, cheese, breakfast sandwiches...Uncle Keith.
Came back and the house is a wreck, the maids are worthless and we pay them $140 to come 2x a month. I want to let them go and pocket the cash but Mike disagrees. I acquiese, when I am tired they are useful. Though it doesn't help that I am a psycho neatnick now after the operation. If I were able to drive I would go to the store and get all sorts of cleaning supplies.
"That's all I got, How'd you like that?" (Kelli Rasberry; Kidd Kraddick morning radio show)
I am back in Dallas fresh of the boat from Ga. While I was there I saw a whole mess of family, too many to name. But I ate well courtesy of my aunt Beths wonderful cooking. My favorite part was the boat ride...even though it WORE me out.
It was a delight to meet Stephanie (My cousin with BT on the right FLobes') wife. I don't know if I explained that properly.
And of course saw Dad&Fran, Grandaddy, Aunt Mardi, Aunt Cheryl, Uncle Keith, Aunt Bobanne, Uncle Charlie and cousin Garner and his wife....
Saw a bunch of pictures. Figured out I like to garden and paint. Gardening is more when I am frustrated task though. Whereas painting is peaceful.
I came home One day early b/c I was out of my Keppra (seizure control meds). I was worried about the cabin pressure in the plane triggering a seizure, Thank GOD that did not happen. I would not only be in pain, but I'd be trapped in this house for ANOTHER 6 Months. Treatment I can take, being caged is not. I want to be a functional part of this relationship. April 21....just a few more weeks.
Aimee Noth is coming into town as my last vacation guest before I start my oral chemo. Lets see I want to go dancing on Friday. Then paint the rest of the wknd, relax, enjoy each others company.
Alexander the Great (Beths' 88 lb 10 month old "puppy") was hurt on his back leg from running right in front of the golf cart (He won't do that again) then got his paw stuck in the locked screen door and scared all of us. It must have been a sight to see 3 people sprinting for a dog that was crying. It was my and Alexs' fault I locked the door and he was chasing a cat, so technically he learned an albeit painful lesson but one he won't forget.
Oh yeah I figured out here I developed a taste for meat, egg, cheese, breakfast sandwiches...Uncle Keith.
Came back and the house is a wreck, the maids are worthless and we pay them $140 to come 2x a month. I want to let them go and pocket the cash but Mike disagrees. I acquiese, when I am tired they are useful. Though it doesn't help that I am a psycho neatnick now after the operation. If I were able to drive I would go to the store and get all sorts of cleaning supplies.
"That's all I got, How'd you like that?" (Kelli Rasberry; Kidd Kraddick morning radio show)
Thursday, March 18, 2010
deep thoughts
life is a phase of existence and we (our energy) exist forever. It is a law Newtons 3rd law "Energy can neither be created nor destroyed." Therefore we not our synapses that stop firing upon "death" Move on into another energy form.
This is the part where it is important. Whether you camoe back immediately in like five seconds is not up to you it is up to your actions in this life. karma is a Rotten Bitch I once wished death upon another person and now I ve got brain cancer and I KNOW i am mortal.
SOuls are immortal and a particular soul can follow a person around They are guardian angels. I will be Mikes guardian angel or he will be mine. I firmly believe that my soul and my sisters soul have had a close relationship before and we are not soulmates but more like our souls enjoy each others company. My soul has found Mikes' soul before we will travel together for as long as this ride goes on.
"That's all I got, How'd you like that!" (Kelli Rasberry (Kidd Kraddick morning show))
This is the part where it is important. Whether you camoe back immediately in like five seconds is not up to you it is up to your actions in this life. karma is a Rotten Bitch I once wished death upon another person and now I ve got brain cancer and I KNOW i am mortal.
SOuls are immortal and a particular soul can follow a person around They are guardian angels. I will be Mikes guardian angel or he will be mine. I firmly believe that my soul and my sisters soul have had a close relationship before and we are not soulmates but more like our souls enjoy each others company. My soul has found Mikes' soul before we will travel together for as long as this ride goes on.
"That's all I got, How'd you like that!" (Kelli Rasberry (Kidd Kraddick morning show))
absent minded ramblings of a dain bramaged chicky doodle
http://www.cheapjoes.com/store/cart.asp?t=viewcart
ugh the wants, not needs, but wants. I have to wonder if this is just a phase or will I be artsy like this from now on. Hell, They fried my brain Like an egg....we will see what happens. I have a chemo lesson In a couple hours. I am supposed to be there at 1145. I can never draw that little cube.
I think my fine motor skills have gone poof. I can name SOOOO many many things that I could not physically do. doctor lawyer pple may not even take me seriously as a social worker. I don't want to volunteer, I want to contribute, not be Mikes "burden". Sell my art? is the only thing I can think of to do but the art supplies are so expensive and it could just be a phase. SOmething is only worth what someone else is willing to pay for it (quoting fran...i think) And that could be good..for me.
I just mix colors around and am experimenting, I am letting my art evolve on its own. Then I can look back in 20 years and say Look at that..........
ugh the wants, not needs, but wants. I have to wonder if this is just a phase or will I be artsy like this from now on. Hell, They fried my brain Like an egg....we will see what happens. I have a chemo lesson In a couple hours. I am supposed to be there at 1145. I can never draw that little cube.
I think my fine motor skills have gone poof. I can name SOOOO many many things that I could not physically do. doctor lawyer pple may not even take me seriously as a social worker. I don't want to volunteer, I want to contribute, not be Mikes "burden". Sell my art? is the only thing I can think of to do but the art supplies are so expensive and it could just be a phase. SOmething is only worth what someone else is willing to pay for it (quoting fran...i think) And that could be good..for me.
I just mix colors around and am experimenting, I am letting my art evolve on its own. Then I can look back in 20 years and say Look at that..........
artsy and vacay
Hello all,
Our dog Sashsa has begun nipping us uhoh. Hubby shaved and then asked for praise. If you want to see my creative outlet go to my facebook page.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=155231&id=511373616&l=2fae0cd90c
Tomorrow I am flying to south carolina where it is supposed to be a "relaxing" time. But here is the reality I have BRAIN cancer and am in the early stage of treatment the prognosis is good but people associate cancer=death.
Grandaddy is 92 yrs old and his wife died recently also My cousin died while I was in treatment and I havent seen their graves. care and grave seeing, such is life with a huge family. my aunt is laid up after her hip replacement so there is another relative down.
remember brain cancer KILLS. but I have an appt with Dr Fink today at 1145
Our dog Sashsa has begun nipping us uhoh. Hubby shaved and then asked for praise. If you want to see my creative outlet go to my facebook page.
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=155231&id=511373616&l=2fae0cd90c
Tomorrow I am flying to south carolina where it is supposed to be a "relaxing" time. But here is the reality I have BRAIN cancer and am in the early stage of treatment the prognosis is good but people associate cancer=death.
Grandaddy is 92 yrs old and his wife died recently also My cousin died while I was in treatment and I havent seen their graves. care and grave seeing, such is life with a huge family. my aunt is laid up after her hip replacement so there is another relative down.
remember brain cancer KILLS. but I have an appt with Dr Fink today at 1145
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
realizations Or epiphany, if you will....
I* feel my brain going all creative on me. I realize now. that I hate television. Even the shows I watch I am sick of them. So I created a room today. Pics are on fb.
Teresa go look at them and tell me how wonderful I am doing. Make sure oliver and david see them too.
Dogs are good company to keep, peaceful, playful, but above all peace.
Which brings me to HOW I am Feeling:
happy
creative
peaceful
carefree
Word of the day:
TRANQUIL AND SERENE
Teresa go look at them and tell me how wonderful I am doing. Make sure oliver and david see them too.
Dogs are good company to keep, peaceful, playful, but above all peace.
Which brings me to HOW I am Feeling:
happy
creative
peaceful
carefree
Word of the day:
TRANQUIL AND SERENE
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