So we went to Dr. nedzi"s office today for a dry run. All they did was put me in themachine and take xrays. Then we hit a hitch They did not have a 700 am appt the time they said we could have. So i called My aunt (because I don't want recycle people) instead of calling his or my parents.
my sister was here yesterday and she drove me around it was good to get out of the house. She took me to therapy and when she came to pick me up she left sasha and indy out, in that short amt of time they ate chocolate cherries and chewed my glasses and got on the couch ate a piece of paper the only thing I could find was a wee scrap of red. It was a good time, for them.
I hauled them up and threw them into their kennels. But the kicker was this: before I was even in the house amy had driven out of the driveway. She didn't walk them but she made us dinner That makes up for it.
um thats it gdnt and gdluck.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
fatigue
Hi, this is Darrell's wife, Pat. The condition you are describing is formally called "Fatigue". It is a very common side effect of chemo and of radiation (and of parents visiting). Fatigue can be absolutely debilitating and there are currently very few treatments for it. Your oncologist or neurologist, or other doctor-person needs to know that you are experiencing severe fatigue. Emotional stress exacerbates fatigue, and may turn it into depression.
Be gentle with yourself, be patient. You need to spend your time resting.
Hi, this is Darrell. Pat and I have dealt with this sort of thing before. Well, not exactly what you're going through, but we saw Pat's sister go through a lot of what you're going through when she had cancer. Pain, chemo, radiation giving her a wicked internal sunburn to the hoo-hoo (luckily you'll get to skip that part), people talking about her as if she wasn't there in the room, more pain... People can be so stupid when it comes to being with loved ones who are sick. They mean well, but they freak out easy and lose what little intelligent part of their brain they may have had at one time.
Pat's right, you need to be patient with yourself. Be yourself. Be a fighter. Give your doctors a hard time. If they think everything is perfect, they won't do anything that helps.
As far as we're concerned, you're doing just fine, typos and misunderstandings included. Rest up and continue to get better-ish.
The McC's.
Be gentle with yourself, be patient. You need to spend your time resting.
Hi, this is Darrell. Pat and I have dealt with this sort of thing before. Well, not exactly what you're going through, but we saw Pat's sister go through a lot of what you're going through when she had cancer. Pain, chemo, radiation giving her a wicked internal sunburn to the hoo-hoo (luckily you'll get to skip that part), people talking about her as if she wasn't there in the room, more pain... People can be so stupid when it comes to being with loved ones who are sick. They mean well, but they freak out easy and lose what little intelligent part of their brain they may have had at one time.
Pat's right, you need to be patient with yourself. Be yourself. Be a fighter. Give your doctors a hard time. If they think everything is perfect, they won't do anything that helps.
As far as we're concerned, you're doing just fine, typos and misunderstandings included. Rest up and continue to get better-ish.
The McC's.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
proud mary
okay alot of people are FREAKING out over what I said earlier in the thanx blog. Let me clarify I will die in the apocolyps 12/21/2012 sooner than i am going to let this fucker take me out. As for being tired? I am tired all the time. the problem is the doc scooped out the portion of my brain that controls word choice so I generally mean something else when I speak that goes for typing too. So to the point EVRYONE CALM DOWN!!! I am not leaving tonight or by choice he is going to have to take me kicking and screaming. Ms Cyrus good point.
thanx
To all of you that are helping out, we want to thank you. To those of you that cannot help physically but are sending good thoughts and prayers my way thank you too.
Radiation starts on the 11th of this month 01/11/10 I think that is lucky just type it and you will see what I mean.
I feel I will be unable to update my status so check the blog periodically for mike updates. If I don't get a chance to say it you have all been wonderful!!!! This is not a give up omission of faith believe me I want to live I just think I might have fulfilled my purpose I am tired all the time. and the words are becoming harder to find instead of easier. I AM NOT GIVING UP I just won't be on the computer as much.
AJG
Radiation starts on the 11th of this month 01/11/10 I think that is lucky just type it and you will see what I mean.
I feel I will be unable to update my status so check the blog periodically for mike updates. If I don't get a chance to say it you have all been wonderful!!!! This is not a give up omission of faith believe me I want to live I just think I might have fulfilled my purpose I am tired all the time. and the words are becoming harder to find instead of easier. I AM NOT GIVING UP I just won't be on the computer as much.
AJG
thank you jessica
written by Jessica Rogers Kirksey
"LIFE" Please read!
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I had a very humbling experience today. No lie, this really happened I called my mother crying after this experience. I had a new client consultation this morning here in Richardson. Obviously, I do not know anything about new clients prior to meeting them, so every time you get something very different! Which is the most obvious reason that I love what I do for a living, not only do I get to care for animals and help to improve their quality of “Life”, but I also get to interact with incredible, amazing and unique people and help to make their “Life” a bit easier! I drove up to the house, which I arrived to 15 minutes early because I have an issue with tardiness! I gathered myself, gathered my books and walked up an average walkway to an average townhome. I rang the door bell and heard the familiar greet of dogs barking, as I normally do at any visit. A very well groomed, small statured man in his mid 30’s came to the door. I introduced myself as I always do with a hand shake and quickly kneeled down to address the two cute dogs that were desperately trying to get my attention. Thereafter we sat at his dining room table to go over questions he had for me, paperwork and typical consultation information.
Ten minutes had gone by while we were talking and a very small, glowing, feeble woman walked in and said, “you must be Jess, I am so glad we found you”. I stood up, shook her hand and pulled the extra dining room chair out for her. She sat with us and her husband just began to look like his skin had been replaced with defeat, stricken with sadness and an overwhelming sense of despair filled the room. What I have not told you is that this little woman, his wife, was missing all of her hair, she had 3 very large surgical scars on her bare head. Atrophy was apparent and she was very pale. Finally, she spoke and said, “I’m SICK. That is why we need you to come everyday and walk the dogs, so that we do not have to find them a new home. My husband loves our dogs very much as do I, so I want the dogs to be here for him when I am gone.” She told me this with a calm, sweet smile on her face. I could not hold back my tears on this one and I am a pretty stellar about not expressing much emotion! She asked me not to cry and if this would be a situation that I would be willing to help with. Of course I agreed! This 28 year old woman who is literally dying and has been given a time stamp selflessly is looking out for her beloved husband and dogs!
I endured a lot in 2009 like almost loosing my pregnant sister and nephew in a horrible car wreck and sitting in the hospital everyday for over 8 weeks while she fought to save Baby Jack’s life (most of the time alone)! Times of loneliness, grief and stress. Pain and sorrow caused by all of the ridiculous drama that others had caused in my life. But, IN NO WAY IS MY LIFE THAT BAD IN ANYWAY, SHAPE, FORM OR FASHION!!!!!!
So, now I sit here thinking the following:
Why the world is constantly lacking morals, hate filled and ruthless. It’s like I constantly say, “ I never watch or read the news for it instills fear in people’s minds by painting a picture.” You always here of this horrible storm that will hit or how the economy is in horrible despair, but the world never ends. The days still follow the nights and you continue forward. For some reason, we are continued to be blessed with “LIFE” everyday!!!! Does the chaos in this world stem from lack of faith in a higher power? For instance, I chose God. Your higher power is for you to chose and for me not to judge! Or could it be the lack of family bonds and positive influence in one’s life? I am not sure, but I have a theory.
I feel as if people in today’s world lack role models and positive leaders! The adults, or should I say elders in today’s world are the problem! No, I am not saying everyone, but I am saying the general population. It is not the children or the teens, it is the decisions, behaviors and actions by adults (my generation and older) that is broadcasted across this country on every computer, on every billboard and on every magazine! Our idolized athletes are using performance enhancing drugs and the leaders of our country are involved in sex scandals, racial indifferences, and have huge dollar signs beaming from their eyes. Look around you, you see it everywhere. Churches and schools across the United States are having to change curriculum to adjust to this turmoil that our country is dealing with. How does it make you feel that your 6 year old starts their first day of kindergarten and the first thing they go over is not the ABC’s or 123’s they in detail go over “what to do if a bad man comes into your class”. Yes it is important for all children to know this, but it is dismal and dubious and we never should have let things get to this point!
It’s time for me to take a look at this and start making a difference! I am apart of the problem as well! 2010 needs to be about improving quality of “LIFE”! It needs to be about helping others, being selfless and yet taking care of yourself and your FAMILY!!! Find those people I have hurt along the way and make amends for my faults! Find your higher power! IF YOU WERE TO DIE TOMORROW, WHAT WOULD YOU DO TODAY? Now, go do it!
-Jess
"LIFE" Please read!
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I had a very humbling experience today. No lie, this really happened I called my mother crying after this experience. I had a new client consultation this morning here in Richardson. Obviously, I do not know anything about new clients prior to meeting them, so every time you get something very different! Which is the most obvious reason that I love what I do for a living, not only do I get to care for animals and help to improve their quality of “Life”, but I also get to interact with incredible, amazing and unique people and help to make their “Life” a bit easier! I drove up to the house, which I arrived to 15 minutes early because I have an issue with tardiness! I gathered myself, gathered my books and walked up an average walkway to an average townhome. I rang the door bell and heard the familiar greet of dogs barking, as I normally do at any visit. A very well groomed, small statured man in his mid 30’s came to the door. I introduced myself as I always do with a hand shake and quickly kneeled down to address the two cute dogs that were desperately trying to get my attention. Thereafter we sat at his dining room table to go over questions he had for me, paperwork and typical consultation information.
Ten minutes had gone by while we were talking and a very small, glowing, feeble woman walked in and said, “you must be Jess, I am so glad we found you”. I stood up, shook her hand and pulled the extra dining room chair out for her. She sat with us and her husband just began to look like his skin had been replaced with defeat, stricken with sadness and an overwhelming sense of despair filled the room. What I have not told you is that this little woman, his wife, was missing all of her hair, she had 3 very large surgical scars on her bare head. Atrophy was apparent and she was very pale. Finally, she spoke and said, “I’m SICK. That is why we need you to come everyday and walk the dogs, so that we do not have to find them a new home. My husband loves our dogs very much as do I, so I want the dogs to be here for him when I am gone.” She told me this with a calm, sweet smile on her face. I could not hold back my tears on this one and I am a pretty stellar about not expressing much emotion! She asked me not to cry and if this would be a situation that I would be willing to help with. Of course I agreed! This 28 year old woman who is literally dying and has been given a time stamp selflessly is looking out for her beloved husband and dogs!
I endured a lot in 2009 like almost loosing my pregnant sister and nephew in a horrible car wreck and sitting in the hospital everyday for over 8 weeks while she fought to save Baby Jack’s life (most of the time alone)! Times of loneliness, grief and stress. Pain and sorrow caused by all of the ridiculous drama that others had caused in my life. But, IN NO WAY IS MY LIFE THAT BAD IN ANYWAY, SHAPE, FORM OR FASHION!!!!!!
So, now I sit here thinking the following:
Why the world is constantly lacking morals, hate filled and ruthless. It’s like I constantly say, “ I never watch or read the news for it instills fear in people’s minds by painting a picture.” You always here of this horrible storm that will hit or how the economy is in horrible despair, but the world never ends. The days still follow the nights and you continue forward. For some reason, we are continued to be blessed with “LIFE” everyday!!!! Does the chaos in this world stem from lack of faith in a higher power? For instance, I chose God. Your higher power is for you to chose and for me not to judge! Or could it be the lack of family bonds and positive influence in one’s life? I am not sure, but I have a theory.
I feel as if people in today’s world lack role models and positive leaders! The adults, or should I say elders in today’s world are the problem! No, I am not saying everyone, but I am saying the general population. It is not the children or the teens, it is the decisions, behaviors and actions by adults (my generation and older) that is broadcasted across this country on every computer, on every billboard and on every magazine! Our idolized athletes are using performance enhancing drugs and the leaders of our country are involved in sex scandals, racial indifferences, and have huge dollar signs beaming from their eyes. Look around you, you see it everywhere. Churches and schools across the United States are having to change curriculum to adjust to this turmoil that our country is dealing with. How does it make you feel that your 6 year old starts their first day of kindergarten and the first thing they go over is not the ABC’s or 123’s they in detail go over “what to do if a bad man comes into your class”. Yes it is important for all children to know this, but it is dismal and dubious and we never should have let things get to this point!
It’s time for me to take a look at this and start making a difference! I am apart of the problem as well! 2010 needs to be about improving quality of “LIFE”! It needs to be about helping others, being selfless and yet taking care of yourself and your FAMILY!!! Find those people I have hurt along the way and make amends for my faults! Find your higher power! IF YOU WERE TO DIE TOMORROW, WHAT WOULD YOU DO TODAY? Now, go do it!
-Jess
Monday, January 4, 2010
dog walker
today was the first day of the dogsitter. That and the first day of the rest of my life. She called me her hero hero, me? I am nobodys hero. Then she said something that struck a chord with me she said we are all here for a purpose and my purpose is to inspire people. She revealed to me that she wrote a story after meeting us and she urged me to go on to face book to read it unfortunately she is not my friend so I cannot go to her site. I sent her an invite though.
still depressed though.
still depressed though.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
falalalala...yeah holidays are over now SHUT IT!!!
I have not been on this in a while. while different people tell me things I begin to see there is one blaring omission, the acceptance of death. You are going to DIE yes you there sitting on the couch eating bon bons or you sitting behind your desk at work (probably be a heart attack for you) and yes even you little dog. But let me ask you this, Do you regret before you were born? If you do well sux for you padre. I see no reason to regret our inevitable inescapable demise than I se to regret before we were in existence.
people say I'm depressed? what? well yea just a bit. The only person I see on a regular day is michael. if it is a special day I will get to see theresa and david and oliver. If it is EXTRA special I will get to see a doctor. OOOOHHH, yea !!!!
people say I'm depressed? what? well yea just a bit. The only person I see on a regular day is michael. if it is a special day I will get to see theresa and david and oliver. If it is EXTRA special I will get to see a doctor. OOOOHHH, yea !!!!
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