Dancing tumors

My readers  know 2 things as an absolute truth about me.  1 I have cancer  2 I LOVE dancing.  That is why I miss Danceaton so much. 

     I went out last night with friends and to my delight we went to The Den, a dance club and lounge.  It was empty when we arrived so not caring what ANYONE thought, I let loose with my pent up dancing frustration.  The bartenders were laughing their butts off at me, but I didn't care.  I was having fun and they were getting free entertainment.  Anyone that has ever been to a club knows that the people come in and the dance floor is a ghost town until the drunks get there.  Well not last night.  One of my many theories is if I have fun that is great, but if I can have fun AND  provide entertainment for people; even better.  I am NEVER going to see any of them ever again and the ones that I will see again are my friends.  Any my point is Other peoples opinion of you doesn't change who you are or the situation that you are in.  If they want to judge, let them.  Be proud that they were paying attention.  Maybe they'll learn something.  There is no point in being embarrassed it is a useless emotion what is done is done. This little 20 something girl came up to me and challenged me to a dance off.  Of course I obliged.  Basically I dance at her.  She got embarrassed and took off.  It was entertaining to me.  Then these 2 guys came up and tried to dance with me.  I didn't want to be hindered so I danced away. 

   Anyway when we left I was DRENCHED in sweat and felt great.  DAMN I wish 24 would bring a cool dance class back.  I only go to swim now bc Turbo Kick and Body Pump are on such a regiment that the instructors have to play certain songs with certain sets and they don't have the rights to play the real songs such as Guns N Roses Sweet child of mine, This guy was howling and it didn't sound ANYTHING like Axl.  I don't blame the teachers at all.

     Every day people live their lives and some of them have such low self esteem.  Up until Snarla parked herself in my brain and challenged me for the right to live I had VERY LOW self esteem.  When I won the fight I the phrase, "you can only control how you act and react" suddenly made a whole heck of alot of sense.  When you get angry think of why you are getting angry, it is usually because you can't control the situation.  It is the same for most negative emotions.  I find the most powerful word is WHATEVER.  Whatever they want to do is what they are gonna do and how is feeling bad going to benefit  you?  Just let go and let God,  basically just float.  If the situation is bad you can just leave.  I learned that from an ex I had nowhere to go so I asked for help and got it.  That is what led me to Texas.  I credit him with forcing me to stand up for myself.

      We only have one life.  So get out there and LIVE like you're dying because no day is gauranteed.

Until next time...