So with the cancer and radiation damage comes memory loss and forgetfulness. I am not talking about forgetting birthdays here. I am talking about how to do basic thing like tying shoes and turning on lights and such. I even lost what comes after T in the ABC's. It really makes me feel like dumb ass. I repeat things over and over again and no one has the heart to tell me, "you said that already." It is good they don't because that would embarrass me to the core. I am eternally grateful. I have twitches now, more persistent than they were before the surgery. Blah blah blah I want some cheese with my whine. I am still here and other people are not, so that makes me one of the lucky ones right? I am still fumbling around trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. If I can't even help myself right now there is no way that I can help anyone else.
Last night I had a dream about a person from my past. She changed my life for the better. She told me if a child has a horrible childhood it only takes one person to reach out and save them. She was the one person who told me I had some awesome strength, I took that to mean I can freely get out of any situation and get through anything. The thing that she said to me the most was You CAN do it. One time she wrote me an email and the bulk of it was you can do it over and over again, then if you ever think you can't just remember YOU CAN DO IT!!!
I loved her like a mother but I had to her behind because my path of life took me a different place. She was the one that told me Life can take you unexpected places. After I left she said I was dead to her. That shattered me. I was hurt for a LONG time and I just started to heal, then I had a Dream about her in the dream I told her I was sorry for leaving her, not the situation but HER. I asked her if she would ever move to Texas, she said that she couldn't because of all the storms. I said they never hit us in Dallas. I don't know why but she touched my soul.
She was there when I had no one in the world. I still love her and always will.
Last night I had a dream about a person from my past. She changed my life for the better. She told me if a child has a horrible childhood it only takes one person to reach out and save them. She was the one person who told me I had some awesome strength, I took that to mean I can freely get out of any situation and get through anything. The thing that she said to me the most was You CAN do it. One time she wrote me an email and the bulk of it was you can do it over and over again, then if you ever think you can't just remember YOU CAN DO IT!!!
I loved her like a mother but I had to her behind because my path of life took me a different place. She was the one that told me Life can take you unexpected places. After I left she said I was dead to her. That shattered me. I was hurt for a LONG time and I just started to heal, then I had a Dream about her in the dream I told her I was sorry for leaving her, not the situation but HER. I asked her if she would ever move to Texas, she said that she couldn't because of all the storms. I said they never hit us in Dallas. I don't know why but she touched my soul.
She was there when I had no one in the world. I still love her and always will.
Interesting about cancer and also about your whine with some cheese.Really Readers must read this.
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