Hello to all my followers ( you just cannot write that so it doesn't sound like a cult.....)
Anyway, we have gotten into a solid routine. It is nice and reassuring. Our dogs are constant source of entertainment for us.
I am officially traumatized by this entire experience, what sane person wouldn't be? All I KNOW is it is ok I can't speak for the future and the past is history but right now it is alright. I just ask for the divine being to let me be at peace with whatever happens. I used to wish that something "exciting" would happen.....now I just want normal and mundane.
When I think about what I have been through it breeds strong emotions. I can't even read my blog the whole way through because it brings up so many memories for me. I believe this is typical. I am not special, it is not about me. When I see Cancer commercials I can empathize with them, but I no longer feel sorry for them. I know that sounds harsh but the medical leaps and bounds they are making give me such hope.
For the first time in a week I am going back to the Stables. I hope it cheers me up.
Anyway, we have gotten into a solid routine. It is nice and reassuring. Our dogs are constant source of entertainment for us.
I am officially traumatized by this entire experience, what sane person wouldn't be? All I KNOW is it is ok I can't speak for the future and the past is history but right now it is alright. I just ask for the divine being to let me be at peace with whatever happens. I used to wish that something "exciting" would happen.....now I just want normal and mundane.
When I think about what I have been through it breeds strong emotions. I can't even read my blog the whole way through because it brings up so many memories for me. I believe this is typical. I am not special, it is not about me. When I see Cancer commercials I can empathize with them, but I no longer feel sorry for them. I know that sounds harsh but the medical leaps and bounds they are making give me such hope.
For the first time in a week I am going back to the Stables. I hope it cheers me up.
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