creative outlet

So I am trying to figure myself out....after the lobe was removed (excuse me, tumor in the frontal left lobe to be exact).

I have nothing to do and cannot drive so I clean to Valaries standards.  I mean Miike came home and the kitchen is spotless.  And he said I could "paint the tape in the storage room".   Wild and wicked right.  So I am wondering if I will follow through on this or go flat.  I don't know. 

Does anyone know how acrylic paint works?

To a person that has all my respect.

Thank you, not only For forgiving me but the things you taught me. It has kept me struggling at the worst of times when I just wanted to give up hope.  Another person recently came into my life that deserves acknowledgment as well.  Jackie from Jamba Juice.  Coming back fro from radiation (where I collapsed with very low blood pressure I had not eaten anything in a week) Dr Nedzi said to me you are wasting away, now it is your JOB to eat.
Mike pushed to go to JJ and I got a peanut butter smoothie (1500 calories)
Gradually my sense of smell started coming back and my sense of taste.  Yup you lose all that with radiation to the brain..yikes.
I cannot thank Mike enough for getting me through this first hurdle.  It feels like every day is Russian roulette will I wake up feeling good or nasty.

That is why I wanted to thank you.  I go into the spa that I filled with candles every morning and soak in a warm tub and listen to Enya.  So thank you. I will always love you thank you for forgiving me. I will not ever see you again but you taught me many life lessons and I am glad I had you in my life at some point.

feeling normal

 feel great!!!!! Unfortunately  an noticing some major personality changes, for the good.  I am now a neat freak Now I don't know if that is just causeI am stuck in the house and bored, but I find pleasure in cleaning.  Keeping an immaculate house keeps the chaos from creeping in.

Scans look good I get the monthe of March off I have a temodor lesson on the 18, at 1 oclock. Then I am going to SC to see my Aunt and Uncle then Keith is gonna fly us out to see my 93 yr old grandaddy whose wife died while I was in treatment.  Also I am going to see my cousins grave who also died while I was in treatmeant.  22 what a waste....

Thats all for now.  Feel free to call to alleviate my boredom.

BTW this house is Frans' Valaries' Connie vaugnhs' and last but most certainly  Marriannes' dream clean.

Lambert the sheepish lion

one of my favorites
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LRtKAQJUc3g

now I get it

I hve it so good with all of the support and march is break time/spring cleanin. I know that chaos in your house begets chaos in you life And i understand the tendancey for everything to reach for chaos.

But I am keeping the house clean myself and am learning.

listening to :
rain: Hey, Soul Sister

Heeey, Heeeeey, Heeeeeey.

Your lipstick stains, on the front lobe of my left side brains,
I knew I wouldn't forget ya, and so I went and let you blow my mind.

Your sweet moon-beam, the smell of you in every single dream I dream.
I knew when we collided, you're the one I have decided,
Who's one of my kind.

Hey, Soul Sister, ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo,
The way you move ain't fair you know.
Hey, Soul Sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you dooooo...
Tonight.

Heeey Heeeeey Heeeeeey...

Just in time, I´m so glad you have a one-track mind like me.
You gave my life direction,
A game show love connection, we can't deny...

I´m so obsessed, my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest.
I believe in you, like a virgin you're Madonna,
And I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind...

Hey, Soul Sister, ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo,
The way you move ain't fair you know.
Hey, Soul Sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you dooooo...
Tonight,

Way you can cut a rug,
Watching you's the only drug I need.
So gangster, I'm so thug,
You're the only one I'm dreaming of you see.
I can be myself now finally,
In fact there's nothing I can't be,
I want the world to see you be, with me,

Hey, Soul Sister, ain't that mister mister on the radio, stereo,
The way you move ain't fair you know.
Hey, Soul Sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you do tonight...

Hey, Soul Sister, I don't wanna miss a single thing you dooooo...
Tonight.
Heeey, Heeeeey, Heeeeeey, tonight.
Heeey, Heeeeey, Heeeeeey.
Tonight.


Now if I did that right you should recognize it if you don't it train and it is catchy  the lyrics the way you can cut a rug lalala

happy happy hAPPY !!!!!

how in love am I?

Well lets see Mike is the one consistent that has made this tolerable.  Through All the treatments and alls the necessary and unnecessary ER visits, through it all; he NEVER ONCE left my side.  Thank you mike, my husband my love of my life, which thanks to you I will continue living and loving you.